Thursday, August 21, 2008

On Stewardship

My entire life, I'd had this dream. It's about something I've always wanted, and it has shaped some big decisions in my life. Not a lot of them, just a few key ones. As a kid, I had actual dreams very consistently and apparently vividly (because I remember them to this day!) about this particular dream. I still have dreams about it.

Recently, we were made an extremely generous offer by some good friends and it's something that would have actualized this very vivid dream. In reality, though, it's probably something we have to say no to for various reasons. One glaring reason is that we have been terrible stewards of something God gave us. If we were better stewards, I think we could pull this off, but the truth is, we haven't been.

It's really heartbreaking for me. Fortunately, I'm the only one with the dream so nobody else is really heartbroken. Maybe the girls a bit, but not for the same reasons. It is tough to swallow and there's no easy or cheap fix to this one. If we can't be good stewards of all the Lord has given us, then we won't be ready for more!

1 comment:

Kathryn said...

I'm sure it's frustrating.

I do think we often encounter multiple opportunities to achieve our dreams... How cool that you have had the same dream since childhood!